There is a place that I occupy as a son in the heavens. Jesus has set me there with Him. As his body on the earth, real time, now, I have authority, resources, experiences awaiting, and interface with Him. The miraculous, the signs of His presence, and the absolute liberty of living and moving in Him is beyond comprehension.
But I don’t know what I don’t know.
Before my in-filling with His Holy Spirit, I couldn’t imagine what an encounter with Him was like. Before His unfolding personal grace to me in 2009, I couldn’t imagine what being completely accepted as-is was like. Before seeing His manifest presence, I didn’t know if I would believe what I would see. There are realms that I have not been exposed to or trained by. If I live each day trying to fit what I don’t know into boxes of my limited experience, I will be miserable. How can I receive what I don’t know if it must fit into a grid which is already known? A child is filled with awe and wonder at what he or she sees, learns, without having all the anchor points that we try to provide during the k-12 experience. They accept what they see. And to be honest, as we progress through life we experience phenomena which we don’t always understand, yet accept. The idea that we place a seed into the ground and out pops a plant – how delightful. A man plants a seed in a woman in the act of the most marvelous ecstasy and zing, we have a baby. Again and again we have incredible experiences that marvel us, then we attempt to understand.
So, how foolish it is when approaching heaven’s realm that we pre-determine what that experience should include, and aren’t simply open-hearted, open-minded, wide-eyed, and giddy as kids.
The turning point.
How is it that I can begin on a new route of discovery as a child? There is a grace freely given. The gift of life. Heaven. Salvation. Joy unspeakable. Citizenship in the heavens. Being an heir of God and co-heir with Christ. The economy of heaven is flush with more than enough. There is a promise of the days to come. There is the assurance of ultimate victory and a vanquishing of our adversary. Amazing stuff. Jesus tells me,
- The person who trusts me will not only do what I’m doing but even greater things, because I, on my way to the Father, am giving you the same work to do that I’ve been doing. You can count on it. From now on, whatever you request along the lines of who I am and what I am doing, I’ll do it. That’s how the Father will be seen for who he is in the Son. I mean it. Whatever you request in this way, I’ll do. (John 14:12-14 MSG)
It’s about living in the present, by His Spirit.
- in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. (Romans 8:4 NIV)
As we live by the Spirit and His direction, the very life that comes from His presence, is distributed to me. So, it’s focusing my attention away from duty, responsibility, and my mind, and on to the expression I see from Him, His word, nature, and in my experiences: His marvelous generosity, His newness, His spontaneity, His joy, favor, laughter, the delight He has at messing with the wisdom of the wise, the hidden mysteries we haven’t even considered.
So incredible! And in the process, as a Son, I learn the realm of His kingdom. He teaches me and gives me the ability to rule and reign with Him. I occupy the courts of His kingdom. Trained in His ways. My spirit is renewed by faith. But the renewal, as with any training on the earth must be experience and repeated. It is not a mind game. This is real stuff.
And I have no idea what I am talking about.
I feel as though I am at the boarding gate of an experience in which I have read the brochures, talked with friends, searched the web. My mind is accepting that I want to go, but the day is at hand that I board the vehicle and go. I must know! Taste, touch, feel and know!